So as I make plans to head home for Thanksgiving I think of how much time has passed. I think about where I was a year ago and I cannot believe how far I have come.
I’m in a new city, at a new school, with a new job… I remember what I was doing this time last year… The night before Thanksgiving I was working at 24 Seconds and it was a busy busy night… I was standing at the server station and I heard someone call my name. I spun around and there was Doug. I hadn’t seen him in quite some time and he and Jessica stopped in just to see me. The last time we had spoke he had told me how much he wanted me to meet her.
Did I mention I was busy that night? I think back now and I didn’t really pay them that much attention at all. I think I always tried to distance myself from Doug because it was just easier for us to be friendly rather than good friends. We had too much history and connection to be able to function in a normal friendship. So after small chit-chat I went about my job and before they left I remember Doug insisting to tip me more than necessary. I rolled my eyes at him like I always used to and they left.
That was the last time I ever saw him.
It was almost a year ago.
I’ve tried not to spend too much time thinking about what I could have done differently. How much nicer I could have been. The things I could have said or the attention I could have paid him. But I remember that Doug always knew how much I loved him. That we never stopped loving each other but that it just wasn’t meant to be. That’s the thought I carry with me everyday. That there was love, and he knew it.
Everyone at Nana & Papa’s is going to have to put a little more on their plate this year…
Make sure you enjoy it as much as he would. He will be there with you.
Spreading love to all of you. Make sure you soak it in.
Happy Thanksgiving.
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