Today.....I will cry.

Opening song.....please don't cry. Try and stop me, today my heart aches, my tears spill out of my eyes, my nose runs, my memories are alive with your face. Today, where ever your spirit may be, and you have many many friends and family to visit today Doug, I am so happy you were a small part of my life. Your powerful spirit, when on earth, overflowed normal boundaries and stuck like superglue for us left behind. Two years.....a tragic waste of life. Some days I can make sense of it......today......the pieces are hard to put together and I don't think I'm going to try ....not today, maybe tomorrow. Not getting the pieces of your death together paralyzes my life. So today, for you...in your memory, I will stop being logical, and clear headed and strong as to why you left this earth at 24 years, alone, troubled, desparate, scared and confused. Today please don't ask me to 'please don't cry'.